Looking up to me

My whole life I have looked up to other people because I am always the baby in the group or family, well fnally I have people lookng up to me. They are my little siblings and these passed couple of days can see how act and the things I say can effect them alot. I fnally know how it feels to watch what you do or say because us little kids learn quick and can repeat stuff. HA! well I am glad I can look up to people and kids can look up to me. Well seems like my little devils are calling for me.

Secret Mission

Are you ready for this??? We are about to get out of this place for 3 days and have the time of our lives!!!!!!!!!! now are you ready..im super excited...but we have to stay professional because we are doing top secret bizness! P.I.C. 007 baby

They Are Just Questions!

Sometimes I ask things because I think I am sometimes not getting the truth. Like I ask a question, people just laugh, no it is not funny. I feel if I dont ask the questions then I wil never know and then I am just setting myself up to fall, so please just answer them, it would help me out.

Old Friends

So when you are best friends with someone you share everything you go everywhere with them and you expect them to be there when you fall. But when you get so close to someone and they just leave you or act like a completely different person then you start to question. I had a friend we are not as close anymore because she turned complete BITCH! not even joking but I think when she realized what she had then didnt have she changed. But let me tell you there were times that she really messed up my life and made it so bad that I had to move schools just to get a break. But talking to her over again made me realize what we had was special, she was the first friend I really put my real self out in front of and we were best freinds. we did everything together talked on the phone alot and never got mad at eachother. then soemthing happened I dont really know what but it just did. I moved made new friends and I am happy but I still sometimes see her and everything just omes back to me and it maks me very sad to see her with otherpeople or to even see myself with other people. everyone told me tat she was a bitch that that I needed out if I was even wanted to survive. But I can say that I miss you. But having a new best friend kinda gets my mind off of her and all of our memories, but there still sometimes is that voice in my head that says hey look remember all the good times dont you want to get back to that, and it is very hard to walk away from that.

Rough

Times can get rough and life can be to much to handle but you have taught me that it doesnt matter who your with or why exactly you want to go on with your life, but it matters if you are happy or not. If your not happy then it takes it longer and harder to get through things. Why fake it if people can see right through it? I f your not happy then change the thing in your life that your not happy about, I did and now I cant stop laughing and smiling and having a good time! goodluck I hope things change! :)

Waiting For You

I am 14 almost 15 and I still havent found " the one. " How long am I actually going to have to wait. I want to make sure that I find a good one but still I am ready to just give up. I think I love someone, but I dont think I should. I ahve known you for a while we just became really close, but will you like me? The questions I need answered.

A Good Night

So last night 1/16/09 I went to go see a movie with my sister and I think seeing it with someone else would have made it a lot harder to understand. Like the people in the movie acted just like us, and the things they felt to eachother were excatly like us too. Like if I saw it with for example my friend Paige it wouldnt have made any sense, it wouldnt have made me relize how I really feel out my sisters and I's relayionship. It would have been just another comody. Through the movie I actually glanced over to my sister and just thought that my life would not be this good and entertaining, fun, understanding with out her.