Old Friends

So when you are best friends with someone you share everything you go everywhere with them and you expect them to be there when you fall. But when you get so close to someone and they just leave you or act like a completely different person then you start to question. I had a friend we are not as close anymore because she turned complete BITCH! not even joking but I think when she realized what she had then didnt have she changed. But let me tell you there were times that she really messed up my life and made it so bad that I had to move schools just to get a break. But talking to her over again made me realize what we had was special, she was the first friend I really put my real self out in front of and we were best freinds. we did everything together talked on the phone alot and never got mad at eachother. then soemthing happened I dont really know what but it just did. I moved made new friends and I am happy but I still sometimes see her and everything just omes back to me and it maks me very sad to see her with otherpeople or to even see myself with other people. everyone told me tat she was a bitch that that I needed out if I was even wanted to survive. But I can say that I miss you. But having a new best friend kinda gets my mind off of her and all of our memories, but there still sometimes is that voice in my head that says hey look remember all the good times dont you want to get back to that, and it is very hard to walk away from that.

Rough

Times can get rough and life can be to much to handle but you have taught me that it doesnt matter who your with or why exactly you want to go on with your life, but it matters if you are happy or not. If your not happy then it takes it longer and harder to get through things. Why fake it if people can see right through it? I f your not happy then change the thing in your life that your not happy about, I did and now I cant stop laughing and smiling and having a good time! goodluck I hope things change! :)

Waiting For You

I am 14 almost 15 and I still havent found " the one. " How long am I actually going to have to wait. I want to make sure that I find a good one but still I am ready to just give up. I think I love someone, but I dont think I should. I ahve known you for a while we just became really close, but will you like me? The questions I need answered.

A Good Night

So last night 1/16/09 I went to go see a movie with my sister and I think seeing it with someone else would have made it a lot harder to understand. Like the people in the movie acted just like us, and the things they felt to eachother were excatly like us too. Like if I saw it with for example my friend Paige it wouldnt have made any sense, it wouldnt have made me relize how I really feel out my sisters and I's relayionship. It would have been just another comody. Through the movie I actually glanced over to my sister and just thought that my life would not be this good and entertaining, fun, understanding with out her.

ok wow

I really just said all that well rewind I was just kiding. I am ok. Morgan you are pretty cool tho but seriously what are your secrets because your good!

Gun Shot

Sitting there, talking, joking around, saying how much we love eachother as siblings......i look away for a second and where did you go? What happened. I cant think straight when I get reminded on what I saw, on what I heard. We were doing just fine, I was there with you, but why couldnt you have stayed? I am sick of faking like you never excisted. You did I saw you, you were there, you loved me, well i guess not enough. I am not the only one that misses you. You completly left me with your mess to pick up. I look exactly like you, people look at me and say wow he was so much better. Then come back and fricken shoot me so people can be happy. They are never just happy with me I am not enoigh anymore. Why cant people see me like a cool person damn it i TRY SUPER SUPER HARD. I practiced being a good freind to morgan, she doesnt know that I spent hours on end reading friendship books to make sure I am doing it right. Yes I know desperate much, but I want her to be like she is with all her other freinds, always saying how much she loves that kid or wow she is amazing. I am amazing too..right. I am trying super hard to walk in your foot steps well lets just face it I have a new twin to stand in there shadow. " Oh hi Kenzie, um yeah can I tlak to morgan, shes so cool" yes she is she is the coolest person I have ever met, she always knows whats wrong before she even asks and I dont blame them for liking her more shes pretty, older, more experienced you could say, she has had a lot more bfs then me. But like come on I am her twin how far can I be from amazing? Just give me the credit I deserve because I have been working really hard. :/

First Timer

Ok so sadly enough this is my very first time being this close to someone. What the hell do you do? Well I have been doing the best I can. I talk about your problems with you, when your confused I am always there to...unconfuse you. I give you the best logics in the world ( lollipop ) Like everyone says yeah I love you sis your awesome I dont know where I would be with out you, and then just poofs! Right out of my life. How do I know that you wont do the same. I have never told anyone anything I tell you, you met me before I even met my self if thats even possible. People have been in and out all I can say right is.........will you just stay where you are. please?