Gun Shot

Sitting there, talking, joking around, saying how much we love eachother as siblings......i look away for a second and where did you go? What happened. I cant think straight when I get reminded on what I saw, on what I heard. We were doing just fine, I was there with you, but why couldnt you have stayed? I am sick of faking like you never excisted. You did I saw you, you were there, you loved me, well i guess not enough. I am not the only one that misses you. You completly left me with your mess to pick up. I look exactly like you, people look at me and say wow he was so much better. Then come back and fricken shoot me so people can be happy. They are never just happy with me I am not enoigh anymore. Why cant people see me like a cool person damn it i TRY SUPER SUPER HARD. I practiced being a good freind to morgan, she doesnt know that I spent hours on end reading friendship books to make sure I am doing it right. Yes I know desperate much, but I want her to be like she is with all her other freinds, always saying how much she loves that kid or wow she is amazing. I am amazing too..right. I am trying super hard to walk in your foot steps well lets just face it I have a new twin to stand in there shadow. " Oh hi Kenzie, um yeah can I tlak to morgan, shes so cool" yes she is she is the coolest person I have ever met, she always knows whats wrong before she even asks and I dont blame them for liking her more shes pretty, older, more experienced you could say, she has had a lot more bfs then me. But like come on I am her twin how far can I be from amazing? Just give me the credit I deserve because I have been working really hard. :/