Guess What?

EVERYONE THINKS I AM BULLET PROOF BUT I AM NOT.

Happy Days

Happy Days I have been very happy today. well like I have bad things happen to me now and then but other then that I am fine today. I had bowling today..i got a 170 not bad huh. well g2g. post later!!

bad day

when you have a bad day...its just a day that is bad. self explanitory. but the bad days that I have are bad..I have bad thoughts and no one cares..no one understands..just I hate everyone on my bad days. and yes you guessed it I am having a bad day. the second day in a row. and I am getting sick of it. I feel like no one can see me. people just walk past me like i am not even there. and everyone says yeah I know how you feel. oh but yeah dont. ok no one knows what your going through just leave me alone!

the name of the game

hahahahaha we are evil!!!!!! but you have to be evil to find what you want and we want something so we are going to be evil to get it. what your self..

Looking up to me

My whole life I have looked up to other people because I am always the baby in the group or family, well fnally I have people lookng up to me. They are my little siblings and these passed couple of days can see how act and the things I say can effect them alot. I fnally know how it feels to watch what you do or say because us little kids learn quick and can repeat stuff. HA! well I am glad I can look up to people and kids can look up to me. Well seems like my little devils are calling for me.

Secret Mission

Are you ready for this??? We are about to get out of this place for 3 days and have the time of our lives!!!!!!!!!! now are you ready..im super excited...but we have to stay professional because we are doing top secret bizness! P.I.C. 007 baby

They Are Just Questions!

Sometimes I ask things because I think I am sometimes not getting the truth. Like I ask a question, people just laugh, no it is not funny. I feel if I dont ask the questions then I wil never know and then I am just setting myself up to fall, so please just answer them, it would help me out.

Old Friends

So when you are best friends with someone you share everything you go everywhere with them and you expect them to be there when you fall. But when you get so close to someone and they just leave you or act like a completely different person then you start to question. I had a friend we are not as close anymore because she turned complete BITCH! not even joking but I think when she realized what she had then didnt have she changed. But let me tell you there were times that she really messed up my life and made it so bad that I had to move schools just to get a break. But talking to her over again made me realize what we had was special, she was the first friend I really put my real self out in front of and we were best freinds. we did everything together talked on the phone alot and never got mad at eachother. then soemthing happened I dont really know what but it just did. I moved made new friends and I am happy but I still sometimes see her and everything just omes back to me and it maks me very sad to see her with otherpeople or to even see myself with other people. everyone told me tat she was a bitch that that I needed out if I was even wanted to survive. But I can say that I miss you. But having a new best friend kinda gets my mind off of her and all of our memories, but there still sometimes is that voice in my head that says hey look remember all the good times dont you want to get back to that, and it is very hard to walk away from that.

Rough

Times can get rough and life can be to much to handle but you have taught me that it doesnt matter who your with or why exactly you want to go on with your life, but it matters if you are happy or not. If your not happy then it takes it longer and harder to get through things. Why fake it if people can see right through it? I f your not happy then change the thing in your life that your not happy about, I did and now I cant stop laughing and smiling and having a good time! goodluck I hope things change! :)

Waiting For You

I am 14 almost 15 and I still havent found " the one. " How long am I actually going to have to wait. I want to make sure that I find a good one but still I am ready to just give up. I think I love someone, but I dont think I should. I ahve known you for a while we just became really close, but will you like me? The questions I need answered.

A Good Night

So last night 1/16/09 I went to go see a movie with my sister and I think seeing it with someone else would have made it a lot harder to understand. Like the people in the movie acted just like us, and the things they felt to eachother were excatly like us too. Like if I saw it with for example my friend Paige it wouldnt have made any sense, it wouldnt have made me relize how I really feel out my sisters and I's relayionship. It would have been just another comody. Through the movie I actually glanced over to my sister and just thought that my life would not be this good and entertaining, fun, understanding with out her.

ok wow

I really just said all that well rewind I was just kiding. I am ok. Morgan you are pretty cool tho but seriously what are your secrets because your good!

Gun Shot

Sitting there, talking, joking around, saying how much we love eachother as siblings......i look away for a second and where did you go? What happened. I cant think straight when I get reminded on what I saw, on what I heard. We were doing just fine, I was there with you, but why couldnt you have stayed? I am sick of faking like you never excisted. You did I saw you, you were there, you loved me, well i guess not enough. I am not the only one that misses you. You completly left me with your mess to pick up. I look exactly like you, people look at me and say wow he was so much better. Then come back and fricken shoot me so people can be happy. They are never just happy with me I am not enoigh anymore. Why cant people see me like a cool person damn it i TRY SUPER SUPER HARD. I practiced being a good freind to morgan, she doesnt know that I spent hours on end reading friendship books to make sure I am doing it right. Yes I know desperate much, but I want her to be like she is with all her other freinds, always saying how much she loves that kid or wow she is amazing. I am amazing too..right. I am trying super hard to walk in your foot steps well lets just face it I have a new twin to stand in there shadow. " Oh hi Kenzie, um yeah can I tlak to morgan, shes so cool" yes she is she is the coolest person I have ever met, she always knows whats wrong before she even asks and I dont blame them for liking her more shes pretty, older, more experienced you could say, she has had a lot more bfs then me. But like come on I am her twin how far can I be from amazing? Just give me the credit I deserve because I have been working really hard. :/

First Timer

Ok so sadly enough this is my very first time being this close to someone. What the hell do you do? Well I have been doing the best I can. I talk about your problems with you, when your confused I am always there to...unconfuse you. I give you the best logics in the world ( lollipop ) Like everyone says yeah I love you sis your awesome I dont know where I would be with out you, and then just poofs! Right out of my life. How do I know that you wont do the same. I have never told anyone anything I tell you, you met me before I even met my self if thats even possible. People have been in and out all I can say right is.........will you just stay where you are. please?

My song to you

You're not aloneTogether we standI'll be by your sideYou know I'll take your handWhen it gets coldAnd it feels like the endThere's no place to goYou know I won't give inNo I won't give inKeep holdin' on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughJust, stay strong'Cause you know I'm here for youI'm here for youThere's nothing you can say (Nothin' you can say)Nothing you can do (Nothin' you can do)There's no other way when it comes to the truthSo, keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughSo far awayI wish you were hereBefore it's too lateThis could all disappearBefore the doors closeAnd it comes to an endWith you by my sideI will fight and defend I'll fight and defend, Yeah yeahKeep holdin' on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughJust, stay strong'Cause you know I'm here for youI'm here for youThere's nothing you can sayNothing you can doThere's no other way when it comes to the truthSo, keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughHear me when I sayWhen I say I believeNothing's gonna changeNothing's gonna change destinyWhatever's meant to beWill work out perfectlyYeah, yeah, yeah, yeah..La da da da, la da da da daLa da da da da da da da daKeep holdin' on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughJust stay strong'Cause you know I'm here for youI'm here for youThere's nothing you can sayNothing you can doThere's no other way when it comes to the truthSo, keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it throughAhh, ahhAhh, ahhKeep holdin' onAhh, ahhAhh, ahhKeep holdin' onThere's nothing you could sayNohing you could doThere's no other way when it comes to the truthSo, keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it throughWe'll make it through

I love you. I am not lying and you can believe it, I love you!

Why Me

What is so specail about me, really. I am a confused teenager that cant ever get both feet on the ground at the same time and I am never happy I always have something to be sad about. I hate myself, the wrong person died in that tragic accident and I am ready to change. I am only the fun person I am in front of my sister and I dont know why I am so confused but i hide it with a smile. I am hurting really bad inside. whatever! I need to break out of my shell....help.

That horrible feeling

You know that feeling where you think your all alone, and the people that you hang out with everyday are strangers? Yeah well I am trying to escape that feeling because it makes me want to through up. I walk down the halls and the walls are getting thinner and thinner, and when people say Hi, I say hey.....thinking who they were. Knowing that I wont she her after History class or at lunch. I know she is only my sister but still she never gets mad at me and she always knows how to make me feel better when I am feeling the worst. The girls at the high school are popular or totally freaky lookin'. There and never will be anyone like my sister. She is just a person and I dont know why I am so connected but I think I need to disconnect just a little bit because anything that happens to her I get really upset and confused. I love her, she is my twin, I am really glad we are. :)

My new beginning

It is 2009. finally. my new beginning starts here and now. I am more happy and way more possitive on life because sooner or later someone will look at you straight in the face and say YOUR DYING. and then you think hmm well geez that was quick. but im not and i want to say something to someone. Life is short and the people in your life are there for a reason. The people that cause you pain are there to show that not all people are who the say they are and the nice poeple are there to tell you that there are good people in this world that you can trust and that will be a friend. some poeple are just there to be there and yeah they are just like a peice of furniture. My best freind/twin will always be there and I have said that about a lot of people but she is definatley different.